Mixed Tape.

This morning was very good. :)
I diluted my orange juice and had a vitamin.
I was fasting.

Then I got home and had:
Cinnamon Life- 240cals.
Oatmeal Cookie- 90cals.
1/2 chocolate bunny- 220cals.
For a Total of 550cals.
:(

At least I didn't go overboard to much.
I was reasonable.
I wanted to start the ABC diet.
:)

I need to work that off!
Fast.
Or try to purge.
I'm having trouble with that lately tho.
:(
Strange.

I think I am tho.
The 1st day I'm only supposed to have 500 cals.
And i had 550. Burning 50 cals won't be that hard to do.

Plus, I'm going to go for a walk and get out of the house.
Which means I won't be around food and most importantly: Easter Candy!

<3 [Anja Rubik}.
 
FUCK!
I just got home from Jim's house.
I had subway.
Then I got home and ate part of a chocolate easter bunny.
And a bowl of cereal.
:(

Today can't be the 500 cal day.
I suppose I'll think of it as a treat for fasting yesterday?
Gr.
Tomorrow will be better.
I promise.
:)
I dread weighing myself tonight.
:X

Great. [not].
School is today. 
Gr...   :(

This morning I had: a vitamin and some orange juice (that was very watered down).
Hopefully I will not get the urge to eat during school.
:S

Hope you all do very well today.
<3
Think Thin.

Can you please help me come up with new ways/excuses to use as why i don't eat.
I only have: I already ate.
                 I'm not hungry.
                 I don't feel good.
I need more.
Thanks.

Tonight was slightly worthless. Although, perhaps not. I went to a rock show at this girls house with Megan, Elan, and Tyler. It was good finally being able to hang out with Megan again. We used to be soo close, now, school has made us part our ways. Elan is VERY studious! VERY smart. However, I envy her tonight because she was dancing and didn't give a damn about what others thought. Tyler is my boyfriend. =S I know it's mean to say, but after "going-out" with him for 4 days now, I don't like him. I think I liked the idea of having a boyfriend. However, I'm way to picky and I don't feel anything for him. He's very relaxed, nice, brotherly-type of guy. With that said, I'm not sure where to go with it. Should I tell him...I don't want to lead him on. However, nothing has been done. No handholding, etc...zip, none, no, eh. I want a guy who is very outgoing. I want to be more outgoing. I really do. So, with that in mind, I looked up "how to not care what people think of you" and got some good tips. =]

1. Learn to accept yourself for who you are and what you look like.
2. Remove the people who bring you down from your life. [why keep them?]
3. Become more independent and confident.
4. Smile. It's contagious and people will see you have alot going for you in your life.
5. Talk to everyone. Screw stereotypes. Be everyone's friend.
6. Be positive. Look on the bright side.
7. Don't give a damn. Do what you want to do.
8. Happiness=definition of success in life.
9. Worrying solves nothing. Fix it.
10. You will gain high respect for being yourself and not attached to a "group."
11, If you don't like them, don't worry about what they think of you.
12. Show people who you are, if they don't like it, who cares? Don't change yourself.
13. "You could get run over today-so enjoy life." 
14. Show others you are a wild spirit and roam with pride, whether they approve or not.

Inside:
I ate ALOT of cereal today. I didn't do too well. Tomorrow I need to eat less. I'm hoping to count my calories and work out tomorrow. Today is my starting point. Maybe if I can adapt #1, (what you look like) I can be the person I want to be. My goal is less than 1,000 calories. =]